You only hear half of what I say.

Hey peeps ! :)

Todayyyy
Hmmm.
Slept at 1am in the morn.
HA.
Was talkin to mum again.
Whoops.
Was shaken awake by my dear mum.
At 9 plus.
o.o
Then after that.
Cleared some stuff in my room.
-sigh-
My table is still in a big mess.
Anyway.
Went to bball in the late afternoon.
Really strong sunshine.
o.o
In the end, go Yishun Park.
Hoho, I like siao zha bor like that, sit on the swing.
Then, that sickening Xavier keep pushing the swing.
ARGH.
I was talking to YT, then was cut off mid-sentence.

Me : Eheh, YT you know arh —— AHHHHHHHHHH !

Yeah.
People were like : This girl siao ar...
I'm like : Oh shit. o.o
I got upset, then I go walk around.
Then the rest go play cards. -.-
So I ended up sitting along the bench.
Who knew, I sat there, and became FOOD for the ants there. -.-
Kenna bite only.
BLEAH.
Got bored, then called parents to fetch me.
Then went to Causeway to have dinner.
Hahah, just nice met Yuwen there.
HAHA.
Then we had a chat.
Huh.
Waste our time only lar hor, twinnie? -.-
After that, walked somemore, then went homeeeeee.
Hurhur, maybe my Aunty, cousins they all coming tmr.
HEHE.
They want come for fried chicken wings.
LOL.
Hope they do. ((:
I miss my nieces ~ :B



Fine.
Maybe it's me that I told you this at the last minute.
But even so.
If you want to make noise, tell it STRAIGHT TO MY FACE.
Dont have to go and tell the others, idiot.
And why'd you have to blame other people?
Let me say this : It has nothing to do with YT.
Ha, let's not be shy in mentioning names.
Why in the world are you blaming her, when she particularly said, it was not because of that?
It's hilarious.
You jump to conclusions.
You didn't give me a chance to explain why.
CORRECTION.
You didn't ask, so I didn't say.
WhydoIevenneedtowastemybreatheonyou.
Yeah.
Fine.
But even if you DID ask, and I DID say, will you even sit down to listen?
NO.
I know you too well to know that.

You only hear half of what I say.

That was why I didn't bother to offer any reason why.
Okay, that, done, over, FINE.
Did your reaction have to be like that?
Oh, you know what?
WHATEVER.
Screw my birthday.
It seems every single problem now is caused by that.
Now I know, what type of person you really are.
At least, if you were so reluctant to do that, tell me.
Come straight to ME.
Dont have to go around poking your nose in to EVERY SINGLE SHIT and stabbing people.
Because of this, from a small molehill, it became a mountain of problems.

I could fight,

seek revenge,

but that's not who I am.

Just because I look like I turn a blind eye to everything, dont take for granted that I really am AN IDIOT.
I'd rather pretend, than make a big fuss out of it.
Haha.
How I miss last year.
There weren't problems like this at all.
Yes, there were hiccups, but through it all, we still made it.
But this year..
Things got more and more haywired.
Honestly, I raise a white flag already.

I will put my hands up, and SURRENDER.

I thought we were friends.
I thought we had that friendship going strong.
I thought we were all sincere.
I thought, after going through last year, we can pull through this year and years to come, regardless of class.
I really put myself into all our friendships.
But, it really seems to me, that these are just MY and MY thoughts only.
It seems to me, that these bonds, that some of us really put our souls into it, are really taken for granted.

And the worst part is,

before it gets, any better,
We're headed for a cliff,

Then in the freefall,

I will realise,
That I'm better off when I hit the bottom.

I'm starting to feel that way.
All I ever wanted was a simple , yet strong friendship.
I'm getting tired of all this.
We're supposed to be there for each other, yet, we drift further apart.
Where were those days, where we were by the "United we stand, divided we fall" slogan?
Where?
Down to the drain?
Ha.
Or, maybe, it was just me.
Maybe I expected too much from all this,
So after all, maybe, it was all my own fault.

Please, take my away from here.
Everything is never as it seems.
My dreams are bursting at its seams.