too much to say

was looking back at previous posts to look for old songs.
found myself relieving all those feelings again.
happiness, sadness, anger, more sadness, more anger.
yeah.
that much still hurts.
i'm actually physically worn out already.
i mean, now.
but i know i won't be able to sleep.
without medication, i'd wake up somewhere, leaving me with broken sleep..
i hate that.
sigh.

too much pain.
too many words.
too much feeling.
too many times.
but no courage.