looking back.

met up with yuwen a few days back.
aww i missed her so much!
what i like about it is tht, despite not meeting for quite some time, we are still able to talk.
like about life, studies - you know what i mean.

2008 (left), 2009 (right)

the rest below are between 2010 and 2011 ^^

And lastly...



Yup and this one was the latest.

Heh. but anyway.

while catching up with each other's lives, i thought about the past.

i know it isnt good to look back, but happy memories are alright, right?

or are they?

honestly, i dont know.

i mean, lately it hurts to even think of the past, despite it being happy memories.

the reason?

simple.

knowing that it'll never be the same again is what's causing all this ache.

i was just reminiscing all the mornings, that we just stood outside the classroom goofing around while waiting for assembly.

there was something new every morning.

how music would be played, how people would be rushing through homework, how we'd joke around.

seriously.

but to get that feeling back...

i believe that's impossible already.

people may seem the same, but then again they have changed too.

some, like me, have become more reserved.

others are even more hyper.

thats one thing that i dont think i can get used to.

for one, i know i have become overly cautious now.

so i'd get paranoid easily.

hais.

i dont even know why i'm like this now...

it's so hard for me to trust people wholeheartedly now.

it's so hard for me to believe that people can mean what they say.

it's so hard.

why am i like this now...?