i am 16 going on 17...

I'm turning 17 in an hour.

 

:(
i think i'm the only one, but i kinda don't like my birthday..? well, not dislike, but well, i don't really anticipate it much. ugh. i'm getting older. another reason is that, usually something bad happens on my birthday. the worst was in sec 2. i like surprises, but i dont know. somehow i don't think i deserve them. i know i'm weird, but i don't know why i'm like that either.

I'm too weird for my own good. ᅲᅲ
right now, i don't know what to feel lol. scared? excited? i honestly don't wish to expect anything because i'll only be disappointed. i've been cheated of my feelings for so many times already lol, i really don't need another one...
anyway. the worst part of this year's birthday is that i can't spend it at home because i have vt. :( i can't even skip it because the concert's in 2 weeks. aigoo. why do i always end up like this. i hope nothing bad happens tomorrow. ugh i really hate this feeling of uncertainty, ambiguity and emptiness.
hul. ᅲᅲ
ah whatever just gonna mia. or crash maybe.

would you wish me, like i did?

did you think that i'd forget yours?

how? your's is so close to my mum's.

but will you remember?

it's the same as your mum's, but will you tell me?

i think you'd be surprised that i remember this.

because honestly, i remember every word you said.