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hey guys.

haven't been here in a while eh? been feeling super moody lately. everything's spinning out of control it really puts me on my nerves. I know I shouldn't be venting anger on people and I'm trying my best not too, but I'm sorry if it does spill out. I'm still human, you know.

 

So this coming Saturday's my sister's engagement. step sister. to be exact. people wouldn't find this a thing to worry about. of course. you're not me. apparently my story's a bit too long and I'm not in the mood to explain. sorry but yeah. anyway. I actually have nightmares of being slapped there. totally not looking forward to this week. so many things to do and CAs are coming up. so screwed up but I really have to work hard. maybe this week is a little late, but I really don't think I can pull off any last min stuff anymore. the good thing is, I've been paying a little bit more attention to econs lectures. but facing the questions.. are a totally different thing. meh.

projects. I'm supposed to be finishing my FOM reflections but I'm just gonna take a break. for now. ugh it's so annoying how 2 people can get on my nerves. one has too many opinions AND always goes MIA, the other has no sense of urgency. it really makes my blood boil thinking of it. yes they have good ideas, but it won't work out if both are like that. and they always ask me, "Nina, why are you always so angry?" I mean like, HELLO. we're supposed to be doing our project but you're not focusing. it really puts me off. ugh. I have to calm down but lately everything's so screwed up.

luckily though, there's VT. but even now, there's bitching. then again, bitching exists if you do wrong and still does if you don't so, what the hell. anyway, thank god for Bernice and Annie. despite all the pervy stuff Bernice says, she's still nice. and Annie just has her way. hehe. so lucky to know them.

watched Pitch Perfect with the seniors and peeps on Wednesday. Had my BC roleplay and I think I screwed up but I don't care anymore. ._. yep I went to the cinema in formal wear..... damn weird. but the movie was damn good!! I like movies that inspire me. especially on music. (Y) 진짜 짱이다! I feel more inspired towards singing acapella now. :D

on a happier note, I think I can safely say I'm over 재 already. well, it's still a soft spot, but I guess the feelings aren't so bitter anymore. I've told my friends about us, but I still find that I can't bring myself to hate him. I just can't. maybe you can say that maybe, some part of me hopes to believe that maybe a teeny weeny part of him had good wishes for me with whatever he did. so yeah. I guess, you might say I'm stupid but I guess I just learnt to let go, slowly. to be honest, it's not easy at all. what can I say? it wasn't 4 years for nothing.

let's just say I've got distractions in poly. ^^ the down side, it's a one sided thing again. ᅲ_ᅲ well, honestly, I'm not too sure if it's just infatuation or do I really like him. my mum says I really like him. and I guess I really do feel that way. well, I think it's pretty obvious that I don't "like-like" people very often right. my mum says I'm too faithful. LOL. I guess that is a good and bad thing. oh well. anyway. I did get a few chances with him. but then this week didn't really seen him much. we do have a few things in common. hehe. ^^

 

 omg I sound like a crazy fan girl. :/

히히히~ but really though. my mum says that I really look disappointed when I don't see him. which I am LOL. meh. my mum says that I should confess, but hey I don't even know him that well and he'd prolly get scared. sigh. well, my instinct has been rather accurate these days. so I don't know..? hope my instincts about him are really right though. :/ oh yeah, my nickname for him is 둥이. don't ask me why, it was just random hehehe.

hope I do get to see him this week. and I do hope I have the courage and patience to go on with this week well.

so yeah I should prolly finish up my FOM now.

 

안녕~!