and i'm here being a potato.
there's definitely no way that i'm able to continue music in Singapore.
the market here is too small.
not to forget that not all fellow singaporeans would support local talent.
and it's not like i'm very talented.
I can only say my voice has changed but I don't even know if it's good or bad.
I listen to Lee Hi and i'm like whoa, if only I could be like her.
but of course that's impossible.
my singing is not the sweet nor the powerful kind.
so here I am, stuck in the middle.
I've always had the notion of being a singer back in my head.
but I know that wouldn't happen, no matter how much I wish it.
think of it.
i'm a muslim.
so many things would be restricted.
and my eczema.
if there was a cure i'd do it in a heartbeat.
but there isn't any.
and my scars are so..
eck.
Sometimes I can't help but wonder..
What if I wasn't born as.. me?
the me as of now?
don't get me wrong, i'm thankful that I've grown up like this.
my parents providing me with a lot of love.
in life there are many fork routes holding 2 or even more options to a different future.
what if..
things were different?
I don't hate the fact that i'm a muslim, in fact I love it.
but what if I wasn't?
does that mean i'd be able to do more things?
or not?
I emphasize, please don't get me wrong, I love being a muslim, but I cant help being curious.
what if I was brought up in another country instead?
Singapore is very sheltered, so would I have experienced hardships?
it's probably stupid to wonder the impossible, but why not?
My past is something I can't change but the future..
no one knows.
so much can happen.
Here's one thing for sure though
if there's a chance for me to intern in Korea i'd fly there first thing.
I know that sometimes the best choice is not to leave, but to stay.
But if I don't leave how do I know what i'm leaving behind right?
As they always say, humans tend to cherish only after a loss.
Life would probably be hard but at least if i'd experienced it, I can decide for myself right?
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