is it enough?

too many times, i'm asking myself if what i'm doing is enough.

i've had my psychology lectures and i feel that i really can relate to ms jean.

my desire to help is very strong.

which is why when shit happens i start asking myself, "where did i go wrong?"

perhaps i'm too hard on myself but i usually start questioning myself.

i dont know.

so something happened within the committee.

actually i'm not surprised.

it was only a matter of time before it got big.

whenever i speak, i'm usually mindful of what i say because i know i can be pretty harsh if i wanted to.

but sometimes i wonder, why should i think for them when they dont care shit about me?

shouldn't it be a 2 way thing?

i'm not asking for much.

i'm just asking for a little respect, is that too much to ask for?

i have my own problems to settle so i dont need you to be on my list.

who are you to tell us what to do anyway?

we definitely have our reasons for doing what we did so who are you to question us?

i feel so tired dealing with you because all you do is talk but don't listen.

just stop talking for once and start listening.

all these happened due to miscommunication.

honestly if you want to plan so much why didnt you just run for presidency yourself.

the worst part about me is if i'm angry i choose to keep quiet.

i repress my anger a lot.

yes it's unhealthy but i prefer to look at the situation first.

dont mistake my silence for a weakness.

it's just that i'm thinking and contemplating the situation.

this is because i dont want to say things i might end up regretting.

i'm just afraid that when i explode one day it'll be really bad..

hope it doesnt happen in the near future.

ugh i guess that's enough for now.

hope things get better this week..