relief

so I got my results.
i felt real calm recieving it.
but i guess, disappointment was spelt across my face.
according to my mum, i'm like an open book, so its easy to read me.
results were wayyyyyyyyyy too average.
1 distinction and the rest were bs.
5 b3s.
*facepalm*
(you can prolly guess out my aggregate i seriously dont care anymore)
like seriously man.
but i was pretty content, because i was expecting worse.
esp for english.
i thought i was gonna get 6 or worse.
thank god i didnt let mrs cheong down!
bio was... disappointing, but at least it wasnt a 6.
so yeah.
I GOT B3 FOR CHEM AND COMB. HUMANS.
happy for those 2 subs because i failed chem at prelims and i've been failing comb. humans since the year started.
so yeah, efforts DID pay off.
syukur allhamdulillah. :)
but then i couldn't stay after collecting my results.
it was...
just too much for me.
dont get me wrong, i'm happy for all of my friends.
just that.
i dont know la. hate myself sometimes.
embarrassment, maybe?
for a simple reason: i cannot hold a finger to them.
that's why it sucks to be in the best class.
sometimes.
well, it has its perks too.
at least i'm pushed to study with that standard.
thank god os are over man.
i miss the people and gotta admit, the studying part.
but the thing that i hated was the pressure.
oh well.

so submitted my choices last friday.
really hope can get into either of these: (in order)

Arts Business Management ; Ngee Ann Poly

Human Resource Management with Psychology (think it's something like that) ; Singapore Poly

Law & Management ; Temasek Poly

Optometry ; Singapore Poly

My mum says I have a lawyer face and i'm like: ?!
i'm actually surprised by myself.
honestly.
if i were still the Nina in sec 1, all my choices would be science courses.
which was why i proceeded with triple science. which i ended dropping anyway but whatever.
which is why I'm kinda like Ms Ashley Zhang.
studied sciences in secondary school, but continued in the humans department.
oh the irony!
well the main reason was because all the science courses are horribly competive from what i heard and i dont want to go through all that again.

friends have asked me why am i not going jc.
firstly, since sec 1, i'd already decided on poly life already.
secondly, I can't stand studying like secondary school for another 2 years.
thirdly, with my shitty aggregate, i cant go to a good jc anyway, so might as well go to a poly yeah? at least i wont waste 2 years failing subjects (again).
so yeah.

whatever it is, im hoping madly that i can get into one of those courses, esp ABM since i jpsae-ed for it..
sigh.

anyway.
i went to watch WICKED THE MUSICAL last Saturday.
it. was. awesome. to. the. max.
serious.
it was my first time watching a musical, and it was GREAT.
there was this dragon there, DAMN COOL.
oh oh oh and i love the voice of Elphaba, Jemma Rix.
Susie Mathers and her voice totally compliment each other.
So far, after some researching on youtube, Susie Mathers, in my opinion, is the best Glinda/"Gah-linda" . heh.
She has a good voice too.
though i think, Jemma Rix is better.
hahah, i guess its because i love the character of Elphaba.
maybe because I'm like her?
well, i'm not green though.
WICKED has taught me quite a few things.

One.
Racism.
Because Elphaba was green (or rather, coloured in our terms), many people shunned away from her.
think it's straightforward since it's kinda apparent everywhere.

Two.
Truth or lies?
People in the Emerald City all believed what they were told, regardless of whether it was actually a fact or not.

truth   /truθ/ [trooth]
noun, plural truths  /truðz, truθs/
1. the true or actual state of a matter: He tried to find out the truth.
2. conformity with fact or reality; verity: the truth of a statement.
3. a verified or indisputable fact, proposition, principle, or the like: mathematical truths.
4. the state or character of being true.
5. actuality or actual existence.

but to them, the truth was what they chose to believe.
even if it was just a rumour.
that part affected me pretty hard because it was just so true.
people can choose what they want to believe, but it i guess, it is up to you to create your own truth to believe in.

Three.
Happiness is what you've got to strive for if you want it.
Fiyero is the male lead in the musical, who is a prince.
Glinda likes Fiyero.
Fiyero falls for Elphaba.
Elphaba falls for Fiyero.
Kinda easy to guess what happens yeah.
though the ending was kinda weird, i'm happy that Elphaba got her happiness in the end.

it really is a nice show!
not to mention, the songs are ALL nice and their voices are all awesome too!

My personal faves are:
I'm Not That Girl
No Good Deed
Defying Gravity
For Good
As Long As You're Mine

watching them just makes me more determined to go Broadway someday.
sighh.
hope that comes true too.

ohmahgah look at the time, almost 2am.
okay i shall sleep now.
Signing off, xoxo :)