bye bye bye

Bye Bye Bye - Skarf
길을 걷다 우연히 너를 봤어 
gireul geotda uyeonhi neoreul bwasseo 
니 옆엔 누구니
ni yeopen nuguni
한번도 본적 없던 그런 얼굴로 
hanbeondo bonjeok eopdeon geureon eolgullo 
행복해 보여
haengbokhae boyeo

좋은 사람 만나란 말 거짓말야
joheun saram mannaran mal geojitmallya
어떻게 그래
eotteoke geurae
다시는 너를 볼수 없을꺼라고
dasineun neoreul bolsu eobseulkkeorago
생각했는데
saenggakhaenneunde

bye bye bye 떠나간 너를 붙잡고 싶은지 
bye bye bye tteonagan neoreul butjapgo sipeunji 
이 맘은 또 먼지
i mameun tto meonji
cry cry cry 밤새 니 생각에 먹먹해지는지 
cry cry cry bamsae ni saenggage meongmeokhaejineunji 
아무것도 할 수 없어 
amugeotdo hal su eobseo 

어제 처럼 마주 치지는 말자
eoje cheoreom maju chijineun malja
난 너무 아프다
nan neomu apeuda
너는 모르겠지 이런 내 맘을
neoneun moreugetji ireon nae mameul
넌 어떠니
neon eotteoni

좋은 사람 만나란 말 거짓말야
joheun saram mannaran mal geojitmallya
어떻게 그래
eotteoke geurae
다시는 너를 볼 수 없을꺼라고
dasineun neoreul bol su eobseulkkeorago
생각했는데
saenggakhaenneunde

bye bye bye 떠나간 너를 
bye bye bye tteonagan neoreul 
붙잡고 싶은지 이 맘은 또 먼지
butjapgo sipeunji i mameun tto meonji
cry cry cry 밤새 니 생각에
cry cry cry bamsae ni saenggage
먹먹해지는지 아무것도 할 수 없어 
meongmeokhaejineunji amugeotdo hal su eobseo 

속상해 내가 이러는게
soksanghae naega ireoneunge
널 버려놓고 널 울려놓고
neol beoryeonoko neol ullyeonoko
바보같이 맘을 몰랐어 이제야 알아
babogachi mameul mollasseo ijeya ara
내가 너를 사랑했는지
naega neoreul saranghaenneunji

bye bye bye 떠나간 너를 
bye bye bye tteonagan neoreul 
붙잡고 싶은지 이 맘은 또 먼지
butjapgo sipeunji i mameun tto meonji
cry cry cry 밤새 니 생각에
cry cry cry bamsae ni saenggage
먹먹해지는지 아무것도 할 수 없어 
meongmeokhaejineunji amugeotdo hal su eobseo 

bye bye bye 떠나간 너를 
bye bye bye tteonagan neoreul 
붙잡고 싶은지 이 맘은 또 먼지
butjapgo sipeunji i mameun tto meonji
cry cry cry 밤새 니 생각에
cry cry cry bamsae ni saenggage
먹먹해지는지 아무것도 할 수 없어 
meongmeokhaejineunji amugeotdo hal su eobseo 

As I was walking, I coincidentally saw you
Who is that next to you?
I’ve never seen that kind of face on you
You look happy

When I said I hope you meet a good person, that was a lie
How could you?
I thought I would never see you again

Bye bye bye, I want to catch you, who has left
What is this feeling?
Cry cry cry, all night, my heart gets cloudy at thoughts of you
I can’t do anything

Let’s not run into each other like yesterday
It hurts too much for me
You won’t know how I feel
How do you feel?

When I said I hope you meet a good person, that was a lie
How could you?
I thought I would never see you again

Bye bye bye, I want to catch you, who has left
What is this feeling?
Cry cry cry, all night, my heart gets cloudy at thoughts of you
I can’t do anything

I’m upset that I’m being like this
I’m the one who dumped you, I’m the one who made you cry
But like a fool, I didn’t know but now I know
How much I really loved you

Hellooooooo.

Wow it's almost 2 months since I last blogged.

Ahehehehe.

Thoughts kept slipping my mind and i end up not blogging.

forgive me, neh?

anyway.

Here's a song by Skarf, a Singapore-Korean girl group. 

for once I'm being patriotic.

HEHEHE.

or rather, it's the Singapore pride (?)

oh well.

their songs are pretty catchy so support them! :)

don't be afraid of the title; i'm not gonna close this blog.

it's far to precious LOL.

it's been.. WOW 5 YEARS + SINCE I STARTED BLOGGING IN FEB 2008.

WOW.

I am quite shocked LOL.

anywayyyyyy.

Last sunday, i went for an audition for a competition for the first time in my (almost) 18 years of life.

and it wasn't a small competition.

it was Mnet's KPOP STARHUNT 3.

honestly, i didn't know how big the event was because Roy just told me that it was just a kpop competition.

when i went to the place i was just shocked. and confused.

and then i started to panic.

because well, i don't have a good voice to begin with.. 

it's not that i'm not confident but my voice is just average.

sometimes i feel so sad, because my voice just sounds normal.

hani can belt, jiamin has that soulful feel in her voice and me?
honestly, i don't know.

after joining the queue, we had to write our names.

because it was such a long line, the 3 of us took turns to practice at the staircase lobby.

i was stressed because it was my first time, and i just.. freaked out.

i remember saying, "Shall i cancel my name?"

of course, jiamin didn't allow that.

oh well.

then our turns came. Jiamin, Roy, then me.

my hands were shaking really badly when Roy was singing. lol.

then my turn came.

though i wasn't given a pass, i wasn't disappointed.

i knew that i outdid myself because my vibrato actually appeared.

hoho.

secondly, i didn't like the environment.

it was at that moment that i started to think over things.

Did I ever want to be famous? I don't like attention.

Would I be able to survive in that competitive of an environment? I almost died in Sec 3/4.

Would I be able to give up everything to pursue that? Family, friends, studies..?

Most importantly, did i really want this?

While thinking about all of these, it then occurred to me that i wanted to be more of a backstage crew rather than the artiste itself.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not giving anything up.

I just feel that it isn't right for me to be in the spotlight.

I've always been more of a supporter rather than a doer.

I should just forget about singing and focus on my studies right..?