crappy

 

 

hello there.

heh i know it's been so long since i last updated? hehehe. sorry. mmm, lately too much has been going on. i really need to rant somewhere.

 

so first.. my results were released today. *huge sigh* well, i kinda expected it but yeah i still can't help being disappointed. of course, it was my fault but... can't i hope? it was still better though, considering that i didn't fail. but i barely passed too. my gpa is neither here nor there either. haish... poa results wasn't released though. ugh i know i didn't do well in that too. i'm pretty bummed out because i know i didn't do well. my mum said it was okay since the results were pretty average. average..

 

i'm pretty sick of being just average. psle, my results were average. o levels, my results were even more average. this time isn't an exception. sometimes i feel like strangling myself. i mean like, am i really not able to shine? am i not good enough?

 

maybe what my mum says is true? that i lack the guts to fight for what i really want? even for vt, i seldom tried for leads because i didn't want people to feel as though i'm desperate for a solo, which is why i actively help with the other parts. my parents often ask me, eh you got lead anot. and i'll just be like, no.. even if i secretly wished for it, i wouldn't ask for it. because i'd rather be awknowledged by others to do the job than do it but making others hate me. sometimes i don't even know what i do that. i mean. seriously. which brings me to the problems in vt.

 

i really shouldn't be blogging about this but i doubt anyone comes here anyway..

so yeah. attendance is quite an issue here. with missing people, it's really very difficult to practice. with the concert coming in around 5 weeks we are barely prepared. i mean, really. songs are not even finalised yet. we haven't even come up with the cue sheet yet. all these make me really jumpy because i hate to rush things. and what makes me more frustrated is that some of them aren't even worried. hey it's our concert for goodness sake. i just hope everything can go smoothly.

 

despite all the rush, i'm still hyped for the concert. well, it is a concert after all. what's more, i'm the stage manager alongside mj and jiamin. hehe i've always seen ms ang doing it for previous achievement day concerts. that was and is still my interest. that was my reason for opting for ABM in the first place anyway. since i'm not there, i'm thankful to get this chance here. hope i do a good job at it though. heh heh heh.

 

hmm there isn't much time left. i'll just end here then. maybe i'll continue tmr if i have the inspiration to type. heee. okay shall end off with this~

 

annyeong ~

 

So sick

Hello people.
Wanted to do a proper post, but I dont have time.

I'm so sick of homework.
I'm so sick of doing things fast.
I'm so sick of rushing.
I'm so sick of doing things things that matter.
I'm so sick of it all.

All I want, is to take off and go somewhere.
Or maybe, just fall into a deep slumber, and not wake up from my dreams.
Why.
Why is time never on our side?
Time, why must you go so fast?

And, this is the first time I'm so close to crying for AMATHS.

P/s. Will reply tags another day.
Thanks for tagging, people. :)
I really appreciate it.

That was the day I'd promised I'd never sing of love,

If it does not exist.

Presentation @ RP

Hello peopleeeeee.

Finally can sit down and post.

:D

Todayyyyyy

Went for Choir at 10am.

Only had an hour.

Sad man.

As much as I didn't want to leave, me, Sabrina, Alfiah and Lucretia had to leave for STP meeting with Mr Elfie.

Geez, had to do mini presentation in front of him.

Discussed for 1h + then was dismissed for lunch.

So, Alfiah, Sabrina, Suran and I went to Causeway Point for lunch.

Ha ha ha.

Was crapping around like nobody's business.

Sat around in KFC for awhile, then decided to eat at Mac instead.

Hohoho.

Apparently, Suran kept complaining on how slow Alfiah ate.

(Y)

Then went to Republic Poly.

Hohoho, on the way there, saw Jiaqi.

Ohmytians.

He's so tall already.

Towering over me.

Nice seeing you again yeah!

As always, Alfiah was trying to pretend she knew him.

Dragged her away. ;)

Then reached RP.

Was quite early.

Mr Sue was still pretty clueless about what was going on.

._.

OH well.

Then colloqium started.

Freaky lecture.

Wanted to copy notes, but the lady skipped by the slides so fast...

Zzz.

Then after that teabreak.

Crapping as usual.

Sabrina just got the hang of the game in her phone.

Hohoho!

After that, had to go into our respective lecture halls while Mr Elfie went for the Teachers' Workshop.

Then had presentation.

Dang, I think I screwed up.

-.-

Forget it, dont want to talk about it.

It was damn freaking cold in the lecture hall la.

My fingernails literally turned purpleeeee.

My hand was whiteeeeeee.

No blood lol.

It was THAT cold.

Ended earlier than expected, so went home.

Rained.

o.o

Took MRT with Sabrina.

Was discussing how NO LIFE our lives were.

Its so sad knowing how fast - paced out lives are, what with SO MANY activities for us.

Its like, we don't have a chance to STOP, BREATHE and think.

Of course, complaining won't help, and in time to come, we'll miss this life.

But ain't it passing to fast?

If we stop, we can't catch up.

But if we dont, we can't catch our breath.

It's not a winning situation for anyone..

Maybe I should participate in lesser activities..

Mine's already jam-packed.

What with Cantare III coming up this December and SYF next April.

Yeesh.

I think my holidays are filled already.

Sometimes, I feel so tired.

But, I have to keep pushing.

(PUSH, Sabrina, PUSHHHHHH! You know what I mean rightttt.)

But , well, it's not like these practices are bad, they're GOOD.

So, for a good cause, why not. :)

At least having something to do is better than not doing anything.

:)

Although, I think my singing skills drop already.

):

Zzz, for Choir must gambate!

:DDDD

Food for thought,

DID YOU KNOW,

that laughing can cure many things,

and one of them is killing the cancerous cells in your body!

Cool right. ;)

Ha ha haaaaa! ;D

Yes yes, must be happy. :D

Damn, maybe I should learn how to NOT deprive myself of happiness, I tend to do that often..

So, right.

HAPPY. :D

Tag replies!

Wilson: YOU STALKER. Thanks lol.

Sabrina: Me too..

W: Hahhaha! The fat boys very cute! Twiddle dee and dum ! XD

Xavier: LOL! I'm NOT emo la.

Alfiah: Hahahaha. I love you too. :)

Meiyuan: HELLO! :) Thanks, linked yeah!

AT: Hahha, yupppp.

Yuwen: Okay, relinked :)

OBSERVATION I had today:

_________________. :D Guess.

Thought of the day:

I'm wondering if I really miss you.

Maybe, I do.

But then again, maybe I dont.

:)

You know what.

Screw the being happy part.

I'm so tired.

Hello people...
Ohmytiancxz.
It's barely the end of the first week, and I feel like shit already.
(._.)
I'm really tireddddddd.
Zzz.
Some classes like Amaths is uber fast.
Then some classes like Bio is really slow.
AHHH !
And Mrs Heng's class can make me fall asleep ! ):
Not good.
I cant even eat sweet..
Sigh.
And Amaths make me dizzy.
(@.@)

Today..
MT
Nowadays, I dont like Chinese periods ):
Dont know why lar, like very sian only.
Biology
Ah, headache!
Emaths
A lot of homeworkkkkk ! ): ):
Recess
-sigh of relief-
English
Mrs Cheong is niceeeeeeee ! :D
She's very expressive.
:))
Physics
According to Mr Elfie , the whole class was half dead when he came in.
Like, of courseeeee. (-.-)
Anyway.
He started on standard something.
I forgot what's the second word.
Whatever, it's part of measurements.
LOL.
And never ask Mr Elfie for a joke.
It's really lame.
Too lame. (-.-)"
SS
We finally meet our SS teacher, Ms Ong.
She's niceeeee :)
Woots.
She's like a combination of Ms Zhang and Ms Ang.
She sounds like Ms Ang, but her way of talking is like Ms Zhang.
Hehehs.
I like her way of talking!
It's very cool :)
She spent like, most of the period trying to convince us SS is easy.
Hohoho.
I'm like, oh, er, okay...
:B
Anyway.
School ended, but stayed back for CL meeting.
Settled stuff, then stayed back also for Choir meeting.
Had to finish doorgifts.
YAY, we finished 400 of it!!
Yay, so Tuesday no need stay backkkkk! :)
Woots.
\^-^/

Tag replies !
Yuwen: Yeah lar.. Zzz! ):
Linda: Eh? Yeahyeah! :) Hello! Linked yeah. :D
Sabrina: Well, it's okay lar. :)
Wilson: *stares hard* (-.-)
AT: We're not supposed to, according to the teachers, but actually if they can see it, they'll give chance. Just dont make it so obvious until cant see socks. Then cfm kenna caught one. LOL.
Yuwen: Yeah lor.. You know lor. (._.)
Xavier: HELLO. Morning? o.o

Alrighty then.
Me gotta go.
I'm really beat.
Goodnighty!