not good with { words }

Sorry (Dear.Daddy) - F(x) Luna & Krystal
Korean
혹시 오늘 내가 그대 맘을 아프게 했다면 용서해요
바보 같은 난 철없는 말 되풀이만 했죠
혹시 지금 그대 이런 내 맘 이해 못한데도 괜찮아요
아무 변명도 필요 없죠 나의 잘못인걸요

말 하지 않아도 모두 알아요 두 눈에 눈물 고였잖아요
Sorry, so sorry, 이게 내 맘인걸요
마음이 여린 날 알잖아요 내가 더 잘 해볼게요
Sorry, sorry, I’m sorry, sorry, 이 말 밖에는 못해, yeah

아 직 그대 속상한 맘에 날 조금 미워해도 괜찮아요
아무 표현도 필요 없죠 나의 그대인걸요 나에겐 영원한걸요

말하지 않아도 모두 알아요 두 눈에 눈물 고였잖아요
Sorry, so sorry, 이게 내 맘인걸요
마음이 여린 날 알잖아요 내가 더 잘 해볼게요
Sorry, sorry, I’m sorry, sorry, 이 말 밖에는 못해, yeah

이 것 밖엔, 할 수 없죠, 그대 없는 세상, 상상 못하죠
부족하지만 조금 서툴지만 그댈 사랑하는 걸요, oh, oh

말 하지 않아도 다 알아요 두 눈에 눈물 흐르잖아요
Sorry, so sorry 이게 내 맘인걸요
마음이 여린 날 알잖아요 내가 더 잘 해볼게요
Sorry, sorry, I’m sorry, sorry, 이 말 밖에는 이 말 밖엔 못해요, yeah

Sorry, sorry, so hard to say I’m sorry
Sorry, I’m sorry, 이 말 전하지 못해 yeah

English Translation

Forgive me if I possibly hurt your feelings today.
My immature self just said immature things.
If you possibly can't understand my feelings, it's fine.
No need for excuses, It's all my fault.

Even if you don't say everyone knows, both your eyes are immersed with tears.
Sorry, so sorry. This is my heart.
You know the day I've opened up my heart I'll do better.
Sorry. (Sorry) I'm sorry. (Sorry) I can't say anything other than this. Yeah~

You can still hate me for your sorrowful feelings.
There's no need for any expressions. To me you'll be here forever.

Even if you don't say everyone knows, both your eyes are immersed with tears.
Sorry, so sorry. This is my heart.
You know the day I've opened up my heart I'll do better.
Sorry. (Sorry) I'm sorry. (Sorry) I can't say anything other than this. Yeah~

I can't do anything other than this. I can't imagine a world without you.
Although I'm lacking and deficient, I love you. Oh, oh~

Even if you don't say everyone knows, both your eyes are immersed with tears.
Sorry, so sorry. This is my heart.
You know the day I've opened up my heart I'll do better.
Sorry. (Sorry) I'm sorry. (Sorry) I can't say anything other than this, yeah.

Sorry, sorry. So hard to say I'm sorry.
Sorry, I'm sorry. I can't say anything other than this, yeah.

I'm usually good with words, but for expressing my feelings.. no.

I can't express myself in front of you.

I can't.

I can't talk to you like how I talk to her, knowing that you will judge the people whom I hold dear.

I don't wish to say how i feel knowing that I will say things I'll regret.
I am fully aware that you want the best for me and do not wish for me to regret not taking some chances.
but why are you so harsh with me regarding that?
honestly, if you would say nicely to me i might really dare to do it..
because your tone is the thing that's discouraging me.
maybe you see me as someone who gives up too easily.
but really, how would you know what i'm thinking?
i can't approach you because of the restrictions you set for me.
i'm not complaining about your restrictions because i'm okay with it but then again..
it would be something i can't talk to you about.
i know i'm not a filial daughter.
I don't buy your heart because i do things that are unappreciative of your love for me.
i really try my best. and i'm sorry if my best isn't okay for you.

Dearest father, Happy Fathers' Day.

Sorry. I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for how I am.
I love you.

Everything's gonna be alright, right?

A short psychology lesson

When a person laughs too much, even on stupid things, that person is sad deep inside.

When a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely.

When a person talks less and if he talks fast, that person is keeping a secret.

When a person can’t cry, that person is weak.

When a person eats in an abnormal way, that person is in tension.

When a person cries on little things, that person is softhearted.

When someone asks about you although that someone is busy, he/she really loves you.

SCREAM

Feel the breeze in the air and scream.

Hello hello hello :)

Today, got back remaining results.

First period, Geog.

Ugh ugh ugh.

Ms Cheng is WEIRD.

She's one teacher that doesn't want to give us marks.

DAMN. -.-

At least I think I did okay.

SS

Was saved the heart attack.

Barely passed, but still :)

At least, my average mark for Combined Humanities will be pulled up, thanks to elec.

PHEW.

Chem

Mrs Chua never come.

Awwwww man.

We were pretty much pressurising the teacher that came in.

Ha ha ha.

^^

Anyhoo, 100% PASSES FOR 3E4.

YESSAH :)

Was pretty dazed throughout the whole lesson due to the marks.

ALAS, i found careless mistakes.

What a schmuck I am. ._.

Right.

MT

THE GREATEST IRONY.

=.=

I cant believe I actually FAILED paper 2.

ZOMG !

ARGH ARGH ARGH.

But thanks to my compo, I got an okay grade.

Coz, I topped for paper 1.

Me: Good news or bad news first?

Mum: Bad

Me: I failed paper 2 for Chinese.

Mum: Then you fail overall ah?

Me: No, its part of the good news. Good news, I topped paper 1. So when avg out at least B.

Mum: How you fail one?

Me: Dont know la.

Mum: You sot one leh, paper 2 fail, but paper 1 like .. .

Irony, irony. -.-

Zzzz.

Emaths

Paper 1, was quite okay, but again, got careless mistakes.

ARGH, and that's still NOT the worst part YET !

For the papers ONLY, I can get A1, but after combining with daily work, my marks dropped to A2!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Damn damn damn.

*mustworkhardfordailyworkkkkkk*

DANG.

I think I can murder myself already.

KNIFE PLEASE. -.-

I HAVE to STOP making CARELESS mistakes for ANY subjects.

It's getting IRRITATING.
I want to scream somewhere, where no one can say a shit about it.

BAH.

Thought of the day ;

I'm feeling so lost.

Homeless Heart

It's always before the exams that I feel lost.

Always in a whirl.

Things are like, whizzing past me, and I'm half conscious.

I wonder why.

Damnit.

Failed physics test.

Again.

____.

I feel stupid.

I am really trying very hard to LIKE Physics.

AHHHHHHHH.

Even worse.

My throat is like, on the verge of having phlegm or even sore throat.

Stupidstupidstupid.

My voice is even BREAKING.

Whatever la, gonna study like shit now.

Tataa.

To all the sick people:

Get well soon!

And to those who aren't (yet?) :

Dont get sick!

:)

Thought of the day:

I'm so gonna study HARD like NOBODY's business.

Did you know?

It's easier to encourage others, but not your own self.

Paint with all the colours of the wind

Dont you agree with this?

Hello people. :)
I was planning on a lengthy post, but most of my time was spent refining my compo, so, ha, not much time left.

Anyway.

Let's see what happened in the past week..

Monday

Hmm, I forgot most of it, but had oral after school.

Hahahs, here's a picture of Nigel being so gayyyyy.

He's before me, so he was trying to whine.

Yup, it's not your eyes that's playing tricks on you.

It's really Nigel.

Oh well.

Tuesday

Seems I only remember the afterschool activities...

Oh well.

After school, went to the Life Science lab at level 4 to do our STP project.

Sabrina, Alfiah and I tried our best to rush, but..

We ended up being about 1/2 h late for SS extra lesson A.K.A SRP.

Thank god Ms Ong didnt scold us or anything..

Wednesday

Refer to previous post.

Thursday

Had NAPFA ~

Was raining, so shiok.

But just when we finished our Napfa test, the rain just got heavier.

Heavy to a point that there was lightning and thunder.

I could hear screams practically everywhere.

Please la, it's BROAD DAYLIGHT, not some horror flick at 12 Midnight.

Zzz.

Anyway, since it was so heavy, decided not to head home yet.

The wind was really strong aye.

So ended up slacking in 3E5 classroom.

Stayed for an hour plus lol.

The year before, it was 3 of you.

Last year, it was 3 of us.

This year, it's many of us.

So, I decided to take a bus home, cause the rain subsided only a little bit.

Sab walked home as it was nearby.

So, YT, me, Yonghao and Jeremy took 800.

Bused over to Northpoint.

Realised a familiar face on the bus, but I can't really put a finger on his name.

Hmm.

Anyway, most of the rain subsided already, so walked home without taking out brolly.

Hehehs.

Friday

HA HA HA.

Mr Cheak let us play volleyball.

"It's too slippery outside for you guys to run." He said.

Yessah.

Played with Sabrina and Alfiah's group.

Well, most of the time, it was a service game.

My aiming gets pretty bad after some time, god knows why.

Oh well.

After school

Went to RP.

Was nearly late.

Mr Elfie: Did you guys just fought?

Me: Huh?

Mr Elfie: Did you quarrel?

Me: No la. What makes you think so? o.o

Mr Elfie: Well, your face was pretty erm, black.

Me: o.o Really.

Huh.

Maybe I was having a black face, but that's from walking from Causeway Point to RP at a really really fast pace.

Anyway.

During the colloqium, I was really really tempted to sleep man.

I closed my eyes for a few seconds, but got awaken by Sabrina.

Me: *closes eyes*

Sab: *whispers* NINA, dont sleep laaaaaa.

Me: *bleary-eyed* uhhhhhhhh. o.o

When I look at the screen, my mind was just blank.

I really could not understand what it was about.

The guy was talking about cutting and pasting the wings of different species of flies to each other.

Basically the idea was gross la.

So, I gave up trying to understand it.

LOL.

Throughout 2 talks, Alfiah was squeaking and squealing non-stop.

During the break, Suran, Sabrina, Alfiah and me stayed back in the lecture hall to take care of the bags.

Besides, we didnt want to go out.

Then Mr Elfie came back, and we started to crap.

Alfiah laughed her really high frequency laughter and Mr Elfie was like, watching in awe.

Just at the point, Suran pulled Alfiah's hair.

Alfiah screamed, and Mr Elfie said this: Well, that reminds me of what I used to do.

We simply stared at him.

Him: Yeah, we took the girl's rubberband and threw it. Who knew, it got caught with the fan, and hit the Physics teacher's forehead in turn.

Us: AHHHHHH, Physics teacher ah. *Idea*

Him: HEY, just coz I said Physics teacher doesn't mean you guys should to that to me ah.

Us: Muahahha.

(Y) right.

After the colloqium, headed home.

Walked midway, when it rained.

Wonderful, I loveeeeeeee walking in the rain. :)

Anyway, when we got to shelter, I saw Mr Elfie's hair, and I couldn't stop laughing afterwards.

Sabrina and Alfiah did too, and we all laughed like crap.

Dried ourselves a bit, then went in to MRT.

I got of at Yishun, while Sabrina and Alfiah stalked Mr Eflie.

Details at Sabrina's blog.

:)

Saturday

Tuition.

Hoho, Xuanye sat beside me.
Like Nigel, he whines.

He was arguing with Wayne, then somewhere along the line of "cheating my feelings" came out.

Hilarious man!

XD

Today

Homework, homework, homework.

What else?

Shall end with a quote from the book, The Colour Of Love by Preethi Nair.

The female lead in the book's called Nina.

:DDDDDD !

Nice right. :)

That's it.

Tataa~

Tag replies!

AT: Yup, OFF WITH THEIR HEADS! :D

Wip: Yeah, me too. There's an element of mystery in the word itself.

Wilson: LOL, Nahhhh. I dont like Selena Gomez. Ew. But her song's lyrics are nice.

Sabrina & Yuwen : This one can? :B

Muruku: Nah, thanks, but no thanks.

ELMO, Alfiah and Wilson: Nah, No worries, I WONT fall. :)

Sabrina: Lololol.

By the way, it's minutes to my dear Potato's birthday!

Happy birthday, darlin'! :DD

Loves yeah!

I promised myself.

Imma forget everything that happened.

Living in the past aint gonna change anything.

Whoever it is, I will forget, by hook or by crook.

Yes, those have been nice memories.

But, I will not allow myself to entangle the emotions behind it.

It will be like a silent replay.

No attached emotions.

Because it was never worth it.

Thought(s) of the day,

I wish to sing with all the voices of the mountains,

and paint with all the colours of the wind.

I am afraid, for every hello ends with a goodbye.

Hmm, seems this turned out to be a long post anyway.

:)

Deja vu

CIP - Crapping in progress.

Why am I getting this feeling of deja vu yet again?
It's always this time of the year.

Thought of the day; Am I really emo?
My mum thinks I listen to too much heartbreak songs.
Well, I beg to differ.
It's just that heartbreak songs have more feel to it.
And that's what I like about these songs.
:)

Presentation @ RP

Hello peopleeeeee.

Finally can sit down and post.

:D

Todayyyyyy

Went for Choir at 10am.

Only had an hour.

Sad man.

As much as I didn't want to leave, me, Sabrina, Alfiah and Lucretia had to leave for STP meeting with Mr Elfie.

Geez, had to do mini presentation in front of him.

Discussed for 1h + then was dismissed for lunch.

So, Alfiah, Sabrina, Suran and I went to Causeway Point for lunch.

Ha ha ha.

Was crapping around like nobody's business.

Sat around in KFC for awhile, then decided to eat at Mac instead.

Hohoho.

Apparently, Suran kept complaining on how slow Alfiah ate.

(Y)

Then went to Republic Poly.

Hohoho, on the way there, saw Jiaqi.

Ohmytians.

He's so tall already.

Towering over me.

Nice seeing you again yeah!

As always, Alfiah was trying to pretend she knew him.

Dragged her away. ;)

Then reached RP.

Was quite early.

Mr Sue was still pretty clueless about what was going on.

._.

OH well.

Then colloqium started.

Freaky lecture.

Wanted to copy notes, but the lady skipped by the slides so fast...

Zzz.

Then after that teabreak.

Crapping as usual.

Sabrina just got the hang of the game in her phone.

Hohoho!

After that, had to go into our respective lecture halls while Mr Elfie went for the Teachers' Workshop.

Then had presentation.

Dang, I think I screwed up.

-.-

Forget it, dont want to talk about it.

It was damn freaking cold in the lecture hall la.

My fingernails literally turned purpleeeee.

My hand was whiteeeeeee.

No blood lol.

It was THAT cold.

Ended earlier than expected, so went home.

Rained.

o.o

Took MRT with Sabrina.

Was discussing how NO LIFE our lives were.

Its so sad knowing how fast - paced out lives are, what with SO MANY activities for us.

Its like, we don't have a chance to STOP, BREATHE and think.

Of course, complaining won't help, and in time to come, we'll miss this life.

But ain't it passing to fast?

If we stop, we can't catch up.

But if we dont, we can't catch our breath.

It's not a winning situation for anyone..

Maybe I should participate in lesser activities..

Mine's already jam-packed.

What with Cantare III coming up this December and SYF next April.

Yeesh.

I think my holidays are filled already.

Sometimes, I feel so tired.

But, I have to keep pushing.

(PUSH, Sabrina, PUSHHHHHH! You know what I mean rightttt.)

But , well, it's not like these practices are bad, they're GOOD.

So, for a good cause, why not. :)

At least having something to do is better than not doing anything.

:)

Although, I think my singing skills drop already.

):

Zzz, for Choir must gambate!

:DDDD

Food for thought,

DID YOU KNOW,

that laughing can cure many things,

and one of them is killing the cancerous cells in your body!

Cool right. ;)

Ha ha haaaaa! ;D

Yes yes, must be happy. :D

Damn, maybe I should learn how to NOT deprive myself of happiness, I tend to do that often..

So, right.

HAPPY. :D

Tag replies!

Wilson: YOU STALKER. Thanks lol.

Sabrina: Me too..

W: Hahhaha! The fat boys very cute! Twiddle dee and dum ! XD

Xavier: LOL! I'm NOT emo la.

Alfiah: Hahahaha. I love you too. :)

Meiyuan: HELLO! :) Thanks, linked yeah!

AT: Hahha, yupppp.

Yuwen: Okay, relinked :)

OBSERVATION I had today:

_________________. :D Guess.

Thought of the day:

I'm wondering if I really miss you.

Maybe, I do.

But then again, maybe I dont.

:)

You know what.

Screw the being happy part.

Almost Alice :]

Hello peeps :)

Today went to see Alice In Wonderland!
So happy.
Like finally man.
NICE eh!
Well, what I saw was not in 3D, but it's good enough for me.
:D
Though I think, the ending's too sad.
):
I cant stand the White Queen(Anne Hathaway) and her hands.
So..
I dont know.
I cant stand it.
:B
Was supposed to see it yesterday, but then yesterday the theatre's air con spoil.
-.-
Anyway, before that, had tuition.
Was pretty light today.
After all, we DO have a take-home test.
):
Argh.
Then went Cambridge with Sabrina, Yuwen and Shahirah.
FINALLY, bought amaths workbook.
Phewwww.
After that, movie.
After movie, went for swim.
WHO KNEW, after swimming for awhile, it rained.
Zzz, ruined my mood.
Oh well, after awhile, I realised, since I'm already wet, might as well swim somemore.
When I went down again, the rain lessened.
HA, hows that. :)
Anyway, here I am now.
Lets rewind a little yeah...

Wednesday
I actually forgot what mostly happened, but yeah, many absentees.
So empty.
Anyway.
CHOIR ROCKED MAN.
Woots.
No juniors!
Hahah, felt like sec 1 all over again, where we're all the "babies".
XD
Oh yeah.
One more thing I've learnt.
Hong Ching is REALLY crappy!
O.O
We all got a shock yeah.
Hohoho, now we know ah...

Thursday
Today, the number of people in class seriously SHRUNK.
Well, OLE 1 was still ongoing, and dancers had their rehearsals.
So erm, 23 ppl left in class.
After recess, when the NCC Land ppl all went for their course, left 20+ only.
FANTASTIC man.
._.
And, miraculously, Mrs Cheong didnt comeeeeee.
HAHHAA.
Limin was so jealous when I told her that. XD
Hahahaha.
Then after sch, showed STP ideas to Mr Elfie.
Yeahhhhh.

Friday
PTM.
Ho, went to sch damn early.
Sians.
Helped out to do stuff.
I was the only CL around.
._.
After that, some friends came to pei me.
Haha, thanks yeah.
Yeah, after that, crapped here and there.
Then got Choir.
Sigh.
Why can't they cooperate? ):
It's really saddening and disappointing.
Haish.
Then after school.
Really bad mood.
Bad day.
The stuff I wanted to buy, all no stock.
Zzzz.

Tag replies !
Xavier: Helloooooo.
Irah: Aiyoooooooo! -.-
JIE: Hahhaha, aiyah, you can one la. We never really blast also lol!
Xueqi: Hahhaha, WE will survive. :D
Yuwen: :)
Sabrina & Wilson: Ha ha ha, you both are the pervs. ^^
Muruku: WHO are YOU? o.o

Yeahhhh.

That's all for now yeah.

Toodles!

Thought of the day,

I HEART this cat here a lot yeah . :D

He's hot. :D:D

Saddening

Hey people.
I've been reading past posts.
I've been looking at past pictures.
Had a great deal of time laughing like shit, and a great deal of time reminiscing.
Hahahah, didnt really realise I was that, um, RASH with words.
Yesssss, I should mellow down yeah.
But then again, I ENJOY reading my angry posts.
Entertaining.
And a lot of it made sense.
That's scary.
I was trying to find a fault in those posts.
I was also trying to see if I was even in the right state of mind.
Apparently, I was.
It made too much sense.
Damn.
My mum thinks I'm too rational.
Yes, I am, but she hasnt seen the really irrational and impulsive side of me.
Oh well.
I guess that day will come soon.
Soon to explode.
:o
Hmm, anyway.
I feel I have matured (if not much, at least a LITTLE) .
2009 was a pretty fruitful year for me, though, it was pretty rocky, and it was pretty much off to a bad start.
But, oh well.
Everyone has their own down moments yeah.

I've really learnt a lot last year.

Yes, I miss it.
But no point dwelling on it so much yeah..
What's important is NOW.
So, go, Nina, let go of the past, and move on.
The memories will ALWAYS be yours.
And so, continue making more memories, for yourself.
Yes, maybe I should be more optimistic.
:)
Though I must say, every little memory seems like it was just yesterday.
Especially that darkdarkdark time.
It's just so fresh and vivid and fresh in my mind.
Oh well.
It's 2010 alr, Nina, not 2009.
Wake upppppppp!
Yesyes.

I'm happy.
Because :
- There's no test next week. :D
- There's only 4 days of studying ! :)
- 2 more weeks till my phone contract ends :DDDDD
- 1 more week till HOLIDAY.

So yeah.
Stuff to look forward to.
:)
April's gna be interesting !
Got performance.
YAY. :D
Okay then.
Tataa for now.

Thought of the day;

Let go of the past, Nina.

Dont live in the past, it cannot happen every again.

Relieve it, but it alas, it will only be a memory.

Tried to say goodbye and I choke,

tried to walk away and I stumble.

Though I try to hide it, it's clear,

that my world crumbles when you're not here.

I want to be Alice.

Hello people :)

Yessah.

I'm updating.

Weewoots.

Sorry, today dont want update picos.

Lazy find USB cable.

Heheh.

Anyway.

FINALLY.

Tomorrow got CNY celebration.

Until 10 plus !!! :D

Uber the happy!

NO test, no lesson.

Ahhhhhh.

Slack! :D

But then, tmr still must do a bit hw.

Then during CNY can relax a bit.

Sch reopen still got so many freaking tests!

Zzzz!

Bleah.

Sigh.

Why is my life so full of tests...

Todayy.

Slept late, coz had to chiong UNECESSARY homework.

Coz Ms Ong didnt come, then I chiong SS SBQ for NOTHING.

Then Mrs Cheong gave us another week of journals to do, so hand in next week.

So much for chionging homework man.

Zzz.

Was like bleary-eyed man..

Thank god there wansnt ANY test today.

Whoop-dee-doo.

First period: MT.

Yay, I FINALLY got an A2 for Chinese in Sec sch.

I'm scared it'll drop.

Must maintain alr.

Idc.

I MUST try to get distinction for MT.

It's my weakness mannnn. -.-

Thenn, Bio.

Woots.

I think I love Bio.

I mean it.

Hope I score well in it.

I think I'm beginning to like Mrs Heng.

But I still dont really like her way of teaching.

Sometimes it's not that I want to feel so sleepy in her class.

It's just really boring.

And I dont like bio prac.

Always fail.

-.-

Sigh.

Then had Emaths.

Hohoho.

I realise we always have a bargaining session with Ms Rozi.

:D

RECESS

Skipped recess actually.

Was still trying to chiong SS.

For nothing.

Zzz.

Eng.

I was literally falling asleep while Mrs Cheong showed the vids.

Sorry Mrs Cheong!

I really didnt mean it.

T i r e d .

And H U N G R Y .

Because I skipped recess, my stomach was growling like crap.

:B

Physics.

I DIDNT FAIL MY TEST THIS TIME!

I passed on the dot.

Yay, no SRP. :)

Yeehaw.

SS

Sad, Ms Ong didnt come.

I enjoy her lessons.

So much for chionging homework..

-.-

Yups.

Aherm.

*clears throat*

Todayyyyy, got song recommendation. ^^

Alice ; Avril Lavigne

It's off the Alice in Wonderland soundtrack.

Vehly nice, I tell ya.

:)

And I WANT TO SEE THE MOVIE!

:B

Must wait long long.

Haish.

Okay then.

Tag replies now.

Tag replies !

Wilson: I take chopper, want? >:)

Amanda: I know, but.. Sigh..

ELMO: :)

Yuwen: LOL! :p
WORTHLESSSSSSSSS!!!

Wilson: RANDOM!

Sabrina: Yeah man. :D

Yeah.

I'm done. :)

Toodles~

I found myself, in wonderland.

Thought of the day:

I want to be Alice.