[L] onely

“I’m lonely. What kind of loneliness? Every kind. I feel disconnected. Abandoned. As always. Repetition. So what, my love? So what? At first, I just wanted to run away. Now I have no where else to run to, nothing to run from. I don’t belong anywhere, I don’t want to go anywhere, I just want to be happy.”

—

Daul Kim

Sometimes you regret opening up to certain people, thinking maybe this time it’s going to be different. But then the very people whom you’ve shared so much with are the ones who turn against you. And It’s kind of heartbreaking when you realize you’ve stepped out of your comfort zone to let someone in, despite the trust you’ve given, it still wasn’t enough. 

"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain."

Jim Morrison

" But the brave aren’t strong because they don’t feel pain. They’re strong because they have.

A rock without fissures cannot be brave, for it has no story to tell. It doesn’t know that it can survive. This is bravery. Surviving despite erosion. Fighting even after the pain has spread within you, all over you. Wearing your pain like battle scars, as reminders of how far you’ve come. Surging forward while wounded, continuing and trusting and believing… even after your stone wall is ridden with tales of defeat. "

The Brave Aren’t Strong Because They Don’t Feel Pain 

s p a c e

“I crave space. It charges my batteries. It helps me breathe. Being around people can be so exhausting, because most of them love to take and barely know how to give. Except for a rare few.”

—	Katie Kacvinsky

falling

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What is it that you express in your eyes? It seems to be more than all the words I have read in my life. — Walt Whitman

 

People think I’m lying about being hurt because they see me laughing. Little do they know I laugh to keep myself from crying.

 

 

Unfortunately, we believe the liars, trust the backstabbers, and like the heartbreakers.

 

 

 

 

 

I still love the people I’ve loved, even if I cross the street to avoid them.

— Uma Thurman

 

 

 

 

I tried to tell the sea
how much she meant to me,
and in return she swelled
and well
she took my breath away.

 

 

 

 

 

 

날개.

Today, when it gets really lonely, I get crazily sad
But no one understands, what to do?
Today, I think, why am I the only one who’s suffering like this?
Saying that everyone is happy are all lies – I won’t believe it

—	WINGS (날개)

Here is the place where I love you.

Deep in the meadow, hidden far away
A cloak of leaves, a moonbeam ray
Forget your woes and let your troubles lay
And when it’s morning again, they’ll wash away
Here it’s safe, here it’s warm
Here the daisies guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I love you.

— Suzanne Collins

Believe

Yes, I really need to stay strong now.

dream of me

I'm not strong.

Just when you think you can move on,
you'll remember all the reasons why you held on so long.

Falling, down down down.

RANDOMNESS FTW. :)

I need to let it go; I wish you'd let me go.

You are the thunder and I am the lightning.

If we ever meet again, I won't ever let you go.

You'll always be a part of me, I'm part of you indefinately.
We'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong.
Oh darling, you'll always be a part of me.

If you asked me if I love him, I'd lie.

There's nothing my heart can do to fight with time and space, because I'm still stuck in the moment with you.

You're so hypnotising,
you've got me laughing while I sing,
got me smiling while I sleep.
I'm giving up, so just catch me.


Will you catch me if I fall?

WHAM !

Harlow harlow harlow :D
I'm updatinggggggg ~
Yes yes yes.
I'm FINALLY using com.
I've been like, DYING to update and use com man.
Yes, I'm that busy. -.-
Argh.
I hate life.
=.=
As of next week I have about 6 pending tests.
And on Wednesday, I have 3 tests.
ARGH. ._.
I know, I filled the class's whiteboard Reminder area with all the tests.
But then, it's to remind ya all yeah..

Anyway.
Let's backtrack a lil.
Had choir on Fridayyyyy.
Happyhappy. :)
Welcomed sec 1s and sec 3 newcomers.
Welcome aboard ! :D
Yeahhh man. :)
Oh yeah.
Hoong Ching has a very very high range.
Trust me.
Scary.
Still, I think Ying Yang's forceto is NICE. :)
Dont sad uh.
You know whatttttt.
Wayne does NOT believe Yingyang can do forceto leh.
XD
Hahhahaha.
Mmm.
Then Saturday.
Had tuition.
I think there's a trick to logarithms SOMEWHERE.
I'm gna find it.
I need to stop making careless mistakes ! :x
Then after class, went to meet YT to do SS.
Apparently, I did the talking, she did the writing.
LOL. ^^
Then after that.
Went to meet Xinpeng and Kevin.
Alfiah had to go for Chingay, so she didnt come along.
So yeah, then we went shopping for our materials.
Along with some 跟屁虫s . :D
Hohos.
People like Azfar, Yuwah and Chong Soon were like, following us.
._.
Yeaaaaaaaah.
And Kevin totally wanted to go with his seniors, and then suddenly he disappeared.
End up me, Sabrina and Xinpeng went to NTUC.
And then Kevin called asking for our whereabouts.
LOL.
Then they came to my house.
Discuss here and there, then I turned A Walk To Remember on.
Apparently Kevin was the one who suggested to see it.

And after 5min of the show, he said this:
Er, are there any other shows to watch instead?
And towards the end he said:
Eh, this show is VERY interesting. I want to see. Can tell me the ending? Did the girl die?

Basically he was bugging me to see it again after he left.
Whattheworld lar, you wont really hear that everyday from someone like HIM you know.
Hilarious mannn.
Then today.
Spent the whole day trying to finish much of my homework.
Bleah.
Shit mans.
I hate homework.
Sigh.
And tests sucks.
Especially when you have a Bio test on mitosis and meiosis.
@.@ !
Sighhhh.

Some random ideas.
1. 熏衣草 代表 一直在等待的爱 .
What the above line means : Lavenders represent waiting love.
Something like that.
I know, my translation sucks. ^^

2. Quote from A Walk To Remember.
Landon : Our love, is very much like the wind. It cannot be touched nor seen, and yet, it is felt.
And yet, it IS there.

3. Book title. I find this nice. :)
I heart you, you haunt me.

4. Untouchable like a distant diamond sky.
Nice song.

5. People can lie with their words, but not with their eyes.

6. 3e4-ians take note.
Class blog addy is http://www.trip-sciencebuds.blogspot.com/ .

Tag Replies!
Wilson: LOL, yes there is.
Sabrina: Hahaha. :)
YT: Woots yeah ! :D
Sabrina: BOOMCXZCXZ! ^^
Xueqi: :D
Wilson: LOL, thank you vely muchie.
Dion: -.-
Wip: No, it isn't. :)
Wilson: Do that and I'll shoo you away! *takes broom* :D

Okay, that's all for now.
Au Revoir.

Results —— gulp.

Hello people ,

Ouhyeah.
I likeeeee this pico. :)
Ain't it cool, if you can walk like that aimlessly in a meadow like this?
So carefree, no end to anything.
And the first thing I'd do, is lie in that meadow.
:)
Yeah.
So.

Todayyyy.
Hmm.
Basically, nothing constructive.
HEHE.
I ended up reading Eclipse.
(again. o.o)
Hahah.
Right now, I am so freaking tempted to watch New Moon.
I did my homework - I reread the book (again) .
Hahah.
And yes, that just made me more curious on how the movie would turn out.
:D
Seems Dakota Fanning's taking the role of Jane.
Scary looking, she is. o.o
Yessssss.
So anyway.
Was " Quote - hunting " just now.
Interesting choice of words, i know. :p
Yeahh.
Gosh, I found LOTS of fantastic ones.
Hmm.
For example.

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
- Eleanor Roosevelt

Silence holds many words.
- Lindsey Knepp

Only do what your heart tells you.
- Princess Diana

The only difference between a flower and a weed is ...
Judgement.
- Anonymus

Stay is a charming word in a friends's vocabulary.
- Louisa May Alcott

In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.
- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Lying is done with words, and also with silence.
- Adrienne Rich

Hahah, that's about all.
Oh shucks.
Tmr.
Get results back.
Crap.
I'm getting the nerves.
-.-
Kayyyyyy.
*starts to chant : it'll be okay*
Yesssss.
Hmm.
I keep having stomachaches recently.
Maybe, butterflies ? o.o
Kay then, that's all.
Buhbye ~

Note to self : Forget.

I got a lot to say!

Hey people.
Hurhs.
How many problems can one simply know?
Knowledge is power, but too much of knowledge is a misery aye.
Anyway.
Bleahs.
I dont feel like going in to detail in to everything.
Many things have happened.
This is just a really bad timing for everything.
I'm torn apart.
Between day and night, heaven and earth, black and white.
It's always extremes.
Lost and Found. Love and Hate.
This guessing game..
It sucks.
Sometimes, listening to their stories, I just get this sense of familarity.
I know.
This must stop.
NOW.
But why?
I get the feeling that I'm so 贱.
I'm the one thinking otherwise.
The mistake was done.
But, it's like I erased the extent of the damage.
And I'm just giving chances again?
第一次是纯真 , 第二次是无知 , 第三次是愚蠢 .
(They say when a woman is cheated, the first time, it's naiviety. The second time, is ignorance. And the third time it's stupidity.)
And so?
While many mistakes are made, many regrets are formed too.
So, I'd say that, might as well just keep it as this.
Hah.
I've been thinking alot this whole day.
So I ended up being too tired, so I fell asleep in the afternoon.
Heh.
And I thought of alot of sentences.
:D
And Karthik was really facinated by them. LOL.

I want an eraser. To erase every misery, mistake and regret.
Things happen for a reason. That's how we learn.
Love cannot be forced.
I know this isn't what I wanted.
With every strike of lightening, comes a memory that lasts.
Not a word is left unspoken as the thunder starts to crash.
A word's just a word, till you mean what you say.
And Love, isnt love, till you give it away.
With one little action, is a chain reaction.
You've already got me coming undone..

Hur.
How I wish it were that easy.

Tag replies! :)
Ahhui - LOL. Okay, thanks. :p
Tianjie - Hahahah, lols! Xp
YT - I know. But I just dont want to think of it aye..
Irah - Standard one lah. :D
Xueqi - HEHEH! :))
ibc - Okayokay, SORRY BOSS!
Esther - Oh, okay.
YT - Yeah lor.
Ruby - Alrights! Thanks. :))

So, there you go.
Adieu.

A load of my mind?

Yo people. :)
WOO, Yuwen's back today~ :D
*does a lil dance*
:D:D
Yes.
We're so different, yet so similar.
That's why we're called..?

TWINS. :D
Wooo~
Twin power uh!
FU YOUUUUU! :))

Yesh.
TODAY
Choir! ♥
:D
Yay~
Today's sectionals werent as pathetic as Monday's.
AHEH.
Yeap.
Thanks, twinnie, for the tee ! :D
:))
Then, did one notice board during lunch.
Woo!
God, she's like a bug ! D:
Then had combineeeee.
Learned new song!
Yay!
Jing-a-ling-a-ling!
Woohoo.
Though, it's pretty complicating.
Over the hills of snow~
And I genuinely felt happy singing today. :))
It was a load off my mind.
Which is why, I love Choir especially MORE during these occasions. (;
And yeah, AMANDA DEAR rocks ! :D
Thanks, amandaaaaaa dear~ :D
Yeap.
And, who want to go for the 18/19 Sept concert uhh?
AMANDA!
Go on the 18 also leh! :D
Go high tgt, like last time.
AHEHEH.
I want to go lah.
And it's like, $7.70 or even $11.20 for the better view ones.
Bleah~
Sabrina, Yuwen, Alfiah, GO GO GO ! :p

I ever wanted to say these.
"Mirror mirror hanging on the wall, you dont have to tell me, who's the biggest fool of all."
- Mirror Mirror ; M2M

"Silence is EVERYTHING."
- Silence ; Aly & AJ

"...Ignorace is BLISS."
- Never Again ; Kelly Clarkson

YESSAH.
Fabulous. :)
Really.
Looking at these days, I feel like leaving behind everything and packing my stuff PLUS my guitar and going to another foreign land.
Somewhere QUIET.
Then, I can FORGET everything.
Now, wouldn't that be nice? :))
After watching Hannah Montana : The Movie , it just got me jealous lahhhhh.
Like, HELLO?
The place is so nice lah can.
Then play guitar there.
Awws.
(Hmm, maybe even at the chicken coop. LOL!)
Jeez.
And the weather isn't like Singapore.
What's more, I like the green plains.
It's just so ...
Vast.
God, I really want to go to those places, like Tennesse?
Or maybe even in Perth.
*sigh*
And yet, reality comes barging through that door, crashing on my dreams.
Sad.
Why is life always so freaking stressed and fed up in Singapore?
It maybe an expanding economy, but, the pace of life is wayyyyyyy too fast.
I'd prefer somewhere slower.
After all, I'm a very slowwwwww person.
:DD
Hais.
And yes, in the end, I decided to go.
Face up to it.
Besides, I've got so much lovely people beside me.
My laogong and twinneh. :)
You guys rock!
And, laogong, dont paiseh uhh! :D

Tag replies !
The very angry sam : HARHARHAR. I know you're jealous, ADMIT it! :D *sticks out tongue*
That someone : Would you really?
Sabrina: Hahah, still online so late aye. O.O HEHEH. Small mehs.

Right.
I cant help but have this urge to post these 3 quotes I've found.
HEHEH.
:))

It's always the best policy to speak the truth -- unless, of course, you're an exceptionally good liar.
- Jerome K. Jerome

A lie told often enough often becomes the truth.
- Lenin

Truth is beautiful, without doubt ; but so are LIES.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

If you want to tell the world, go ahead.

Whatever.

Lastly ,

"No sword bites so fiercely as an evil tongue."

- Sir Philip Sidney

New thinking.

New colours.
New thoughts.
New blogskin.
A changing heart.
A changed person.
A changed perspective.

Hey all! :D
Woo!
I changed my blogskin. :D
(Well, you can say, again.)
Yeah.
I changed it to this one coz I felt that it's so simple and the colours are calming.
Besides, the colours are pastel ones.
And I LOVELOVE pastel colours. :D

I feel we should stop.
Honestly.
You know, you didnt have to apologise.
If you think you weren't wrong, you didnt have to do that.
Let's just acknowledge this: We all have our different perspectives and stands.
So let's just stop already.

Yeah.
I've said what I want to say.
I think I'm gna go read about quotes and find meaning in it. (:
Bah.
I dont care if anyone thinks that I talk chim-ology.
:D
Wahahahs.
And I'm gna live by them.
Woo.
And I've decided.
To study harder than I already did.
(:
Here are some quotes I've found and chanced upon.
Enjoy.

'Hope' is the thing with feathers
That perches on the soul
And sings the tune -- without the words
And never stops at all.
-Emily Dickinson

There is always some madness in love.
But there is also always some reason in madness.
-Friedrich Nietzsche

I like this one. :D

"Laugh, and the world laughs with you.
Weep, and you weep alone.
For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer,
Sigh, and it is lost on the air;
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care. "
- Solitude , Ella Wheeler Wilcox

I find this one ironic, but so true.
What we anticipate seldom occurs, what we least expects generally happens.
-Benjamin Disrali

Look not mournfully into the past.
It doesnt come back again.
Wisely improve the present.
It is thine.
Go forth to meet the shadowy future, without fear.
-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Now, this.
Is really TRUE.
Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in ovealls and looks like work.
- Thomas A. Edison

I lovelove this one.
Yesterday is but a memory and tomorrow only a vision, but today well lived makes every yesterday a memory of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope.
- Ancient Sansript Poem

This is freaking true. :o
The heart has its reasons which reason knows NOTHING of.
-Blaise Pascal

This next one, is sad, yet unbelieveably true.
For of all sad words of tougue or pen, the saddest are these,
"It might have been."
-John Greenleaf Whitter

This is the true nature of home - it is the place of peace; the shelter, not only from the injury, but from all terror, doubt and division.
-John Ruskin

"The sweetest joy, the wildest woe is Love."
What the world really needs is more love and less paperwork.
-Pearl Bailey

It is Love, not Reason, that is stronger than death.
-Thomas Mann

Faults are thick where Love is thin.
-English Proverb

My favourite one:
Love conquers ALL. (:
- Virgil

Hah.
How true is this..
In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love.
-Diegu Marchi

The art of love... Is largely the art of persistence.
-Albert Ellis

And these remaining ones are from the book I recently read: A Place called Here - Cecelia Ahern.

We can't fight the effects of time; how it alters us, how with each year an extra layer is glazed upon us, how everyday we are something more than we were.

There's a fine line between hate and love.
Love frees a soul and in the same breath can sometimes suffocate it.

Many imbalances within our individual lives result in an overall more worldly balance.

When something in gained, it has been taken from another plave.
As humans we are the epitome of life, in life there is ALWAYS balance.
Life and death, love and hate.
Lost and Found.

Woo.
Some are really lovely.
I LOVE the ancient Sanscript poem one. (:
Oh well.
I'm about to find more.
:D
Aheheh.
Oh, and I'll end off with this one.

"Life is like photography.

We develop from the negatives."